Honestly,
I would like to live with no expectations. To drop all wishes about other people’s actions. To be open to all opportunities.
I would like to live free and sleep like nothing bad could ever happen. Dream a child’s dream of being safe and protected with bravery tucked away for those times when I really need it.
I would like to feel like what I have worked so hard to build couldn’t be destroyed by something small…friendships, professional relationships, dreams. I am taking huge risks, can I make them work?
I would like to feel satisfied by my work. To wake up inspired and full of the joy of hard work. Snuggle in with nature, my muse, and see what happens.
I would like to not feel the need to please everyone. To find my own path without hurting those around me.
Sometimes I feel like I need to put thoughts out into the world. Write them down so they are solid and I can stand on them and judge their importance. Maybe find out where they come from and where they might take me. I admire honest thoughts, not mean ones, and those who can share them with others without being worried about acceptance. I hope my son will always be able to do that with me, excluding the teenage years of course because we all know how those will go.
This year will be a hard year for me and my family but my friends reminded me last night, as we all sat around after midnight reviewing 2012 and looking forward to 2013, that it is all about perspective and where I direct my focus. What do I want out of this year? To find freedom in honesty with myself. To laugh often from the joy of overwhelming beauty and even small dreams coming true. But most of all to have great strength to face everything else.
I hope you find what you need this year and have great success. I also really hope you come and share those things with Hot Mama Hikers because we love a good story. Happy New Year! – Znara
“To laugh from the the joy of overwhelming beauty and even small dreams coming true” – wonderful. I do believe you’ve found honesty and freedom in yourself already; you just need to trust it. Lovely post.
Thank you for being so specific. I really enjoy that. I think I need to let my honest thoughts out more often in their raw form too, which is definitely part of trusting myself and being confident in the way they are expressed. Maybe with practice
Thanks again and I hope you have a wonderful new year full of a lot of adventure!